For almost two months now, we’ve been reading Romans chapter 8 at church. To summarize, Romans chapter 8 tells us we are more than the sins and labels this world places on us. Whether you’re religious or not, I feel like this applies to everyone. We all deserve to be told that we’re so much more than things we beat ourselves up about.
You are more than your mistakes. You are more than your title. You are more than your suffering & loneliness. You are more than what this world tells you you are.
I know it’s hard to believe these things, especially when you’re feeling hopeless & down on yourself. It’s hard to believe you’ll ever recover from an illness or a trauma. Maybe you feel like it’s impossible to heal, or that there’s no way you could make up for things you’ve done.
I am living proof that these negative thoughts you place on yourself, are wrong.
There are things in my own past that I am not proud of, & that I’m still working on forgiving myself for. I lived most of my life with an undiagnosed mental illness; I made a lot of mistakes & hurt a lot of people during that time. I was impulsive, seeking thrills rather than stability, because chaos was all I had ever known. A lot of times, when something bad happened in my life, I’d think back on my past and say, “I deserved that”. I took the phrase “shaped by your past” quite literally, and just lived like all of my mistakes were written all over me for everyone to see.
But the truth is, you are not only about your mistakes. You are not only about your trauma, or your diagnosis. We are all human. We are all a work in progress. Mistakes and trauma shape you, yes. But they do not define who you are, nor do they determine what you are capable of. If you know better, you can do better. We can all use our past to reshape our futures. Don’t ever let your mistakes, or your current suffering, stop you from trying to heal or recover. Everyone deserves a second chance to improve their lives; don’t give up on yourself.