At church this past Sunday, the sermon was about compassion; having compassion for others while standing firm in your beliefs. My takeaway from that was "okay, I need to be less judgmental of certain people in my life". Then yesterday at therapy, we had a huge breakthrough; forgiveness. But it wasn't about forgiving others, it was about … Continue reading Forgiving Yourself
Kind of Had An Episode
Last night, I was triggered by something that I still do not understand about myself. Maybe it's due to my incredibly low self-esteem, maybe it's based on how I was raised, hell maybe it's because of an abusive relationship I was in many years ago, but anything relating to naked bodies even in an artistic … Continue reading Kind of Had An Episode
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Sensing Things
One of the prominent symptoms of BPD for me personally is the unfortunate ability to basically sense how someone important or close to me is feeling, and the tendency to connect it to impending doom. I've done this for as long as I can remember, and I hate it! My husband is not a man … Continue reading Sensing Things
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BPD “Episode”
When BPD strikes, I refer to it as one of my "episodes", and last night I had one from out of the blue. Well, not completely out of the blue; I ran out of my anxiety medication over the New Year holiday, so of course I went 2 days without it. I still took my … Continue reading BPD “Episode”
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Past Mistakes
I realized the other day that even though I'm moving forward with therapy, even though I'm making this attempt at improving myself for those around me, I have left so much damage behind. It absolutely slapped me in the face that maybe therapy and an attempt at changing myself isn't even worth it because the … Continue reading Past Mistakes
