I've never really known who I am as a person. I'm a chameleon of sorts; I make friends and blend in with those friends, because it's comfortable. As a child, my mother always put negative emphasis on the fact that I would often pick up traits of others around me. From phrases to opinions to … Continue reading Identity
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Effects
Loneliness. I felt it coming on about midday Friday, and it's interesting what triggered this and the all around "down" feeling. I had a conference with a teacher and she proudly spoke of how my oldest child talks about me. She always says how "my mommy is the best mommy in the world". She's a … Continue reading Effects
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First Best Friend
I forgot to journal last night. My therapist told me that's fine if I forget, just as long as I'm making an attempt to jot down what triggers me and how I feel when I'm set off. I personally have a love hate relationship with journals and diaries. When I was 13, a journal entry … Continue reading First Best Friend
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Therapy Week 1
I went to therapy yesterday. Ironically enough, the therapist's office is located on the same side of town I grew up in, so that was a fun blast from the past in itself. I guess you could say the initial visit went about as standard as any initial mental health visit; they get to know … Continue reading Therapy Week 1
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It’s All Downhill From Here
"It sounds like you have some abandonment issues from your childhood; how your mom was there, but not really present..." Being told you have Borderline Personality Disorder is tough. As someone in her 30's, it was basically like ripping open decades of pain and laying it all out in that psychiatrist's office. Simultaneously, it felt … Continue reading It’s All Downhill From Here
BPD: A Journey 