Certain parts of my childhood make more sense to me now that I know I'm a borderline. I thought I would start a little series about those "pre diagnosis" experiences to possibly help others who are diagnosed or suspect they are a borderline. When I was ten, we had some little birthday shindig for me … Continue reading BPD Growing Up Part 1: She Was Mine
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Validating Your Feelings
At therapy last week, I had yet another big discovery; I tend to knock down my own feelings and opinions of things. For example, if I'm feeling upset about something, I will tell myself, "stop it, you're being dramatic". If I'm feeling sad about something, I will tell myself, "it's stupid of you to feel … Continue reading Validating Your Feelings
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Kind of Had An Episode
Last night, I was triggered by something that I still do not understand about myself. Maybe it's due to my incredibly low self-esteem, maybe it's based on how I was raised, hell maybe it's because of an abusive relationship I was in many years ago, but anything relating to naked bodies even in an artistic … Continue reading Kind of Had An Episode
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Past Mistakes
I realized the other day that even though I'm moving forward with therapy, even though I'm making this attempt at improving myself for those around me, I have left so much damage behind. It absolutely slapped me in the face that maybe therapy and an attempt at changing myself isn't even worth it because the … Continue reading Past Mistakes
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Expecting Failure
When I started this journey with my psychiatrist, I was open to medication because I had been on a few different ones and while the one I was on was helping, I felt it wasn't enough, like it needed something else. So my psychiatrist prescribed an additional medication that, over the course of a month … Continue reading Expecting Failure
BPD: A Journey 